In life you get to see lot of shades of colors like anger, happiness, boring etc
These colors carry a value when your mind is not busy. Else they do not paint a picture of "your" personality but paint a picture of your thoughts.
Most of only see picture of life which is painted on thoughts and not on your character.
We can safely say almost none of the living humans possess a ability or virtue to paint there personality to world. That's the reason they say we live in an illusionary world where everyone are "faking" there outputs.
True character emerges when life is under threat or life is in complete disarray or if you are super human!!!
Try practising to love yourself
All the best!